Its almost 4 am and I have not shut my eyes. So much is on my mind and I blame it on 2 major things! 1 of them being SATC2 and the relationship that I am in. Just like Carrie I am currently entering my "terrible 2's" in relationship. And it has me thinking... Will we get over this bump or we will be another couple that bites the dust?
For all of my life I have many people have viewed me as a strong, reliable, don't take shit from no one kinda girl. But in fact I am a very sensitive girl! Just ask my boyfriend, who I think just found out tonight. Even though we have been together for 2 years and known each other for 7 years LOL ! Not only am I so sensitive but I am a woman who believes- no who vows to forever have a fantasy made up soon to come reality romantic life. I yearn for flowers, candy, posts its, romantic walks and toasts to our relationship.
And after expressing it to my boyfriend he could not understand what I was saying. At first of course I cried and cried and then I became angry. But after cooling off, I came to the realization that this isn't all my fault!
This is a lesson that has been embedded in females before we could even wipe our butts! You know we all have heard of it and even tell younger ladies in our lives the same thing! YOU ARE A PRINCESS! When you read a fairy tale that is what you are told! True Princesses get rescued from their Prince and escape from a horrible life and live happily ever after. So now being the age of 25 I have come to realize its complete BS!
My boyfriend can be a Prince when he wants. I am guilty of I expecting too much of him. If I want some one to be at my every beckon call and love me unconditionally maybe I should get a puppy? Right now I have a man, who supports me loves me and cherishes me in his own way. And its better late than never right? Don't get me wrong, I am not saying to accept any thing from a guy because he is a guy. But you have to know what battles to pick and what battles you have to wave the white flag. Because as he is mostly likely sleeping sound asleep you have BIG puffy eyes and will look a hot mess tomorrow for your 7am meeting.
There is no exact way a Prince to act or treat you, because every Prince is different. But there is a way to treat yourself like a Princess. If you want love, unconditonal love maybe you have to date yourself and remember who loves you more than him - yourself!. And if he doesn't see how special you are then kick that frog outta your CASTLE!!
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